那么爱你为什么

I was awake at 4a.m. *sigh* I rolled on my bed till 8a.m. 4 hours man! Walau!! After getting up, my mucous came out like leaked pipe. *sob* It led my mind back to the days when I woke up everyday 4a.m. My fault, not yours... Don't worry. *smile*

To let go or not, it's under your control. I understand this very well. So I threw my feelings to the corner in order to make me couldn't see it. Guess what? It really paralyzed my feelings a little while, but after a while it bounced back to me. The impact would be larger. The pain would be heavier.

I remember Leong told me, if I cry means I feel pity of myself. Sometimes I think I really did pity of myself. If I don't, who else would? If someone else would, what's the meaning behind? I don't like people to feel pity of me. It's because I always think I'm better than lots of people in the world. Yet, today I cried again. How many times? I don't remember. This time I cried, it wasn't because that I feel pity of myself, but I really feel tired. I need a rest.

I think I'm back to be a polar bear. I wanna survive alone. You might misunderstand my fur is white color (In fact my fur is colorless!), yet I don't mind how you all think of me. Penguins can swim through islands, but I can only walk through lands. I can't shift. It's getting colder without you, I should hibernate now. The land might get smaller, as the icebergs is melting without waiting anyone, but my pain is getting deeper. It's OK. No pain, no gain. Because of you, I know more about myself. Thanks. Thanks for giving me a mirror, and letting me know that I'm actually still a polar bear. The weak, but hopeful polar bear. Please bring me out of this white cold place one day, to the colorful tropical area.



Why do I love you so much?

我担心，因为我在意……那你曾否感觉到呢？

Hasayaki

A little moody today. I wonder why. Miss you loh... Nothing much I think? *sigh* It's OK...

Rubik's Cube

Justin promised to teach me how to solve a Rubik's Cube. What he has contributed was only telling me the right combo of the colors when I was opening up and building back the Rubik's Cube. Besides that, he did nothing. *sigh* Ended up I looked for the solution through Google (Sometimes we need to work for our own, eh?). I found this website quite useful. Following the guides, I've solved a few puzzle since an hour ago. For a newbie, it's a brand new start, OK? *smile* Anyway, my hands are very tired now. *sob*

Love Sencation

When I was opening this page, I was frightened for a moment. My speaker suddenly screamed! Oh ya, that was a song Adrian sent me.

Negima OVA - Love Sensation



Hey, here we go! Are you ready?

You know I love, love, love you passionately (Whoo!)
Think of, of, of you obsessively (Yeah!)
I know it sounds strange, but when I see your face
My heart feels like it's exploding (Explosion!)
Love's an intense sensation!
Baby, your touch gives me burstation!

Love, I love, I really love you, I love, I love to kissy kiss you!

I hike up my skirt, unbutton my shirt in hopes that you will notice me
But you'll never see all the things you boys have put us girls through
Oh, how it hurts, all the times you've broken my heart
Even so, it won't keep me from telling the world how I feel about you

Cause I believe-lieve-lieve my wish will come true (whoo!)
You'll, you'll, you'll confess your love to (who?)
me obviously since it is my dream, we'll be together and live my fantasy
Yes, yes, yes, I know that it's strange (it's not that strange!)
I can't help my obsession for you (hands off, Eva!)
All that I want is to hold your hand and never let go, be mine forever
Love's an intense sensation!
Baby, your touch gives me burstation!

I think the singer is acting cute, but she makes me feel excited as well... You know, like when Qian Ning found food. *laugh* I like the part when she sings "I hike up my skirt, unbutton my shirt in hopes that you will notice me"... That's funny! I imagined in a very cartoonized and animed way... *laugh*

IC found!

My younger brother once lost his IC. They all looked for it everyday yet couldn't find it. Somehow mommy found it few days ago.

Me: Eh, Chow Weng Toh! If I found your IC, what would you pay me?
Him: What do you want?
Me: Hmm... *thinking*
Him: CC?
Me: How much will you pay?
Him: How much do you want?
Me: RM9!
Him: Deal!
Me: *show him the IC I found* Alright, RM9 for me! *grin*
Him: *excited* Where did you find it?
Me: Ask mommy...

Why RM9? It's because I paid for him last time! *cry* RM27 lost!

p/s: 尽管你在地球的另一端，我也不害怕；因为我已把你藏在心里。那你曾听见我的心跳吗？

VIP

Today my uncle and aunty came to my house. Nothing much actually... He's coming over for a body checkup in IJN, Institut Jantung Negara.

Guess it's gonna be a little spiced up these few days. Oh well, it's better than nothing! *smile*