Handcuffs

Now I know why I can never hug you. It's because you locked my hands with your handcuffs and never set me free. You knew I'd hug you tightly after you open the handcuffs. That's why you'd rather lock me up. That's why you'd rather keep the keys away. I knew it. I knew it... I can't hug you while I feel like crying. Yes. You're evil. You're really evil. I hate you. I hate you so much...

Set me free, please...

*sob*

Emo-ly by,

4thmOnth™ (Who is currently transforming into a peacock...)

This Is It!

I went out with Cat Mama. *laugh* She's my cousin.

We went to Redbox with Julie as well. I could see different ages of people sing different type of songs. I sang old songs while they sang new songs. *laugh* Though I'm much younger. *grin*

After that we watched the documentation of Michael Jackson preparing his concert "This Is It". I found out that Michael Jackson was really a perfectionist. He wanted everything to be done like what he wished, without flaw. Funkier style, bounce-out timing, the guitar sound... Everything he wanted to be the best. I salute him and his enthusiasm. If everyone has the enthusiasm and the determination of doing things, I bet the world would be a better place. *smile*

Julie went back home early, left me and Cat Mama window shopped. We saw Universal Traveler got promotion. RM400 worth of bubble jacket is now RM139! It's cheap! When I called daddy to ask whether I should buy or not, I got the bad news. *sob* I think he really doesn't want me to go this Spring intake. What can I do? *sigh*

After I sent Cat Mama home, she had to point me the way back using a receipt and a cacat-ed pen in my car. *laugh* I know I'm really bad in memorizing directions. I'm sorry. I hope I won't get lost in LSU later. *cry*

Rose in the Night

Ayerr... The weather is so stupid lah! Just now was so hot and now it rains heavily. Yet I'm grateful that mommy stop complaining that her clothes weren't dry. *smile*

I wonder how annoying I am. Even when I talked to mommy past few days, I could see she just answered me without digesting what was I saying. How about those people who're separated from me by our monitors? I really don't wanna guess yet this question mark keeps spinning in my head. I suppose things are actually worse than how I guess, right? If so, I think I should just give up looking for people till I know what should I do.

It's holiday now. Not doing any homework. Not studying for any tests. Not driving to college. Not loitering in CAE office. It kills me. I really prefer schooldays, so I can make myself busy.

I know I'm thinking too much. I hope you'd pat my head and tell me that everything's gonna be alright. (Yet, you're not here. *sob*) I think this is the moment when I should learn to be stronger, right? So please teach me how to bloom in the dark...

To love is to risk not being loved in return. (Credits to Liwei...)

Multitask Pro

This is our long-time-no-see Adrian Wong Kit Mun a.k.a Mun Mun! He promised to on web cam with me since few days ago and tonight only he did what he promised. And he's on with someone else AT THE SAME TIME! *sob* This boy har... Sad already... *laugh* Some more he on his web cam and talked to his friend MORE! That boy got better attraction I supposed. *laugh*
















Jahat Adrian, don't expect me to treat you nasi lemak in the future. HERH! *get out and slam the door hardly*

Hari ini hari apa? @@

Holiday... Eat, sleep, eat, sleep... Till I don't know what's the date and day today. *sigh* Lifeless...







How will I get better once I had the best?

Think too much?

Went emo again. Chew said I think too much. I hope I really worried too much at that moment. God, please take care of all of us, physically, mentally or whatever You can name. We need You.

Went out with Pauline and Yling this whole day. I think they'll post it up so I'm lazy to write. *laugh*

Goodnight my blog.

=(

Mommy bought back Softlan, instead of Dowry. Whenever I smelled it, I thought it would be the same as what I liked last time. No, I don't like it anymore. The odor isn't like what I smelled when you're here last time. Since then I knew, I miss you badly. Yet, I can't look for you anytime. I think giving you space is the best thing I can do for you. What else can I do?